Why I Joined the Mormon Church, Page 2
Having
grown up reading the Bible and faithfully attending church three times a week, camp
meetings in the summer months and special church services along the way, as
well as traveling with three different gospel singing groups throughout my young life,
and having attended Lee College, a church college in Tennessee for a short
period of time . . . well, I thought I had, if not all, most of the knowledge I
needed to sway religious doctrine to my way of understanding. I was quite feisty and fearless in my defense of
my religious beliefs and I would, and often did, take on anyone desiring a good
drubbing.
I was sure I would be able to persuade my new husband to my way of thinking. I visited the library and brought home anti-mormon books. I raised many arguments as to why his church was considered unchristian, even a “cult.” Our first few months of marital bliss had turned into marital blisters. The friction between us over our religion threatened to end our union as seeds of doubt as to whether we should stay married made its way into our minds. I had my gloves on, my defenses were high . . . until the day I heard the voice of God, either his voice or that of one of his servents, I know not, but I heard a voice.
In
the meantime, Steve and I prayed together.
I did realize that we were praying to the same deity. People from the mormon church gave us a
lovely reception and stopped by to see us and wish us well.
Not willing to admit it, I was not happy with
the Church of God. I was witness to
bickering and back biting. Scare tactics
and threats were used by the minister to try to reign in his congregation. Confidences were broken and used to cause
speculation among the members. I loved
the members and had many friends there but what finally took the cake was an
announcement made by the minister that the head of our gospel group, The Bread of Life Singers,
which was anchored in this church, would be leaving. Next the minister planned a farewell party
for him and The Bread if Life Singers.
In reality, our group leader had never announced that he was leaving. I was in disbelief of what I was hearing and
many were astonished at the announcement.
I was later to learn that the minister felt that too many people were
not showing up at his services because they were following our singing group to
their different performances and he just wanted us gone.
I
know that God has a plan for all of us and sometimes he allows things to happen
in our lives that, although hard at the time, brings us blessings and great
joy. He sometimes removes obstacles from
our way to make room for the gifts he has created for us.
Soon
after we were married, the arguments would ensue. Whose church were we attending this
Sunday? There was something so special
about Steve that it wasn’t long before I realized he was the way he was BECAUSE
of his religion not in spite of it. His honesty and
integrity impressed on me that it came from his inner core that had develped from the teachings of his church and good parenting. There was a special light resonating from him
that I recognized as the light of Christ and so I started searching for
answers. I prayed fervently for
answers. I asked God to help me decide
which church was His church. I had so
much turmoil going on inside that there were times when I would ask Steve to excuse me so that I could pray and be alone with God.
When
I was a little girl, my grandmother Sadie was my best friend. When I was five, she was five. When I was ten, she was ten. As I grew into my teens I confided in her as
to the type of man I wanted to marry. I
wanted to be a minister’s wife. I wanted
to marry a man of God.
Shortly
before I met Steve, my grandmother Sadie died of a massive heart attack.
He never had the chance to meet her.
As I was contemplating whether or not I should marry Steve, she whispered
into my heart, “he is the one.”
I
knew that my grandmother would never lead me astray. I continued to pray for clarity of choice. I made the decision to attend church with
Steve and to find out on my own accord what was “wrong” with the mormons. A mysterious thing happened though; every Sunday
morning for several weeks in a row, our car wouldn’t start, neither one of
them! On the one Sunday when one of them did
start, we didn’t get further than a couple of hundred yards from our house when
the engine stalled. Steve had gone to
get gas and instead got a tank full of water.
It was just one thing after another after another.
At
this point, I was really confused. I
could not for the life of me discern whether God was trying to keep me from
going to the mormon church because it was “of the devil” or Satan was trying to
keep me from going to the mormon church because he was trying to keep me from discovering a “true church of God”!
to be continued . . .